Deranged in her bitterness: Jessica Edens [left] killed  Meredith Leigh Rahme [right],whom she accused of dating her ex,  before shooting her children and turning the gun on herself

The sadistic South Carolina woman who killed her two kids and her estranged husband’s girlfriend before turning the gun on herself left a series of bitter suicide notes behind, blaming her hubby for her actions — and wishing him a lifetime of torment.
“You have caused me more pain that I’ve ever been in in my life. You have caused my children pain. I hope you rot one day for what you have done to me and my kids … I hope you live with pain and shame and guilt for the rest of your life,” killer Jessica Edens wrote to her husband, Ben, according to the Greenville News.
Jessica, 36, was locked in a nasty custody dispute with Ben over her 5- and 9-year-old kids when she went on the spree. Jessica complained to police a few days before the murders, her estranged husband he had been cheating on her with Meredith Rahme, 28, for about a year. Police had made a wellness call on the house at the instigation of Ben who feared for the welfare of the children.

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She blasted rival Rahme while the woman sat in the driver’s seat of her car in a Greenville parking garage around 5 p.m. July 13.
She then called her husband to gloat.
“Everyone you love is gone. Do you hear me? I’m about to be gone too,” she said, according to the Greenville News.

Hayden King, 9, and his sister Harper Edens, 5, were shot to death by their mother in Greenville, SC on July 13

Two hours later, authorities discovered Jessica and her two young children inside her locked-and-running SUV at a garage several miles from where Rahme was killed. Each of the three had a single gunshot wound to the head. A .40-caliber handgun stolen from Jessica’s parents was also recovered.
The bitter note to the husband was found inside the SUV along with two other handwritten notes: one addressed to her parents and sister and the other titled “Last Will and Testament.”
“I am so sorry for the pain I am causing all of you. You’ve all always been there for me and I love you all so much. I know what I have done is selfish, but I cannot live with this pain any longer,” the letter to her family reportedly read.
“I just cannot handle it. It is too much. It hurts too much. I will no longer be in pain and my children will no longer hurt either. I am so so sorry. I love you all.”
The notes were released by the Pickens County Sheriff’s Office in response to a Freedom of Information request filed by the Greenville News.

Authorities used a baton to smash in the driver-side window of the locked, running SUV to retrieve the remains of the child victims and their killer mom. The suicide note was found in the Jeep.